Before all that happened, I was an incredible jerk, an arrogant piece of shit with an intellect to match and zero attachments to anyone.
She wasn’t the nicest person and took advantage of me, but I hurt her feelings and I made sure when I came to my senses that I apologized, regardless of what she’d done, I messed up.
Use woman-created media to to remind yourself that the world isn’t only about you men women who have/have not rejected you as a romantic partner. Reason #4: If you ask the women you know for recommendations of books and movies they love, they will flock to this project. Have you looked into clubs, classes, volunteering, Meet Ups?
If you meet a woman, and you kind of like her, and you are looking for something to talk about, try asking her “ If you listen to her, and then go and read or watch that thing, she may or may not date you in the end, but you will get infinity coolness points because this behavior by men is sadly all too rare. This is as close as I ever get to the #1 SEEKRIT TRICK TO IMPRESS GIRLS kind of advice-giving. Some cool places to meet lots of nice people are: From how you describe yourself: Intense, intelligent, good at arguing, passionate about certain things that no one else likes, I am going to make an inference that you are very smart, quick-witted, and you like to be good at stuff and impress people.
For most of my teenage years, I didn’t need people and I didn’t need love.
I’m literally petrified of making the same mistake again and of ever hurting another living soul again, I’ve been bad, I’ve made mistakes and I’ve taken advantage of people, now I’m trying, very hard not to be that person again and that includes treating women as people, with thoughts and feelings, hopes and fears and dreams.