You have access to a teeny, tiny part of their lives and have constructed an elaborate theory based on jack and shit. My own experiences with romance, for lack of a better word, came to the forefront too.I remember how one of those captain of the cheerleader squad and I were casual acquaintances, and the more time we spent together, she once thought it was funny as hell to sic her scuzzy asshole friends on me and make my life a living hell.Thus far, we still are at the point of my shrugging my shoulders and saying “… ” Because all we have is that don’t like these dudes.The more I thought about it, the more I realized this kind of stuff was incredibly common.
Sometimes the answer is more complex or requires a deeper dive into the situation.I’m wondering if this was her flirting or her finding another way to tease you because of how much it wigged you out. You aren’t coming across as the most reliable narrator, bro.Shit, I remember at one point I found her on Facebook years later out of curiosity, and she’s into that whole fixing the bad boy thing.I was raised around animal abusers, alcoholics, drug addicts, thieves, rapists, pedophiles, and a whole bunch of other ne’er do wells.Funny thing is I only had a few people in my immediate family, and their close circles I was forced to associate with by proxy, and each individual person fit at least two of those unsavory monikers.The years that followed up to the present I never once got into any relationship, both for reasons well beyond my control and for my own personal fuckups.But this queasy feeling about dating should I ever decide to get into it has never left me.Sometimes it’s because they think they see the good in them and can fix them. And sometimes the shitty edgelords try to hide being shitty from people they’re trying to date.I recalled how a similar field hockey star and straight A student dated a loser type for years, someone who couldn’t even spell cynical.Even in school, a few of my dear fellow male classmates liked how baby-faced I looked back then and groped me more than a few times.I’m grateful that I was born a boy and not a girl, because I don’t want to imagine the kind of shit that would have happened to me otherwise.